That sickin' old Bob going mad again, due to all the whiskey. We are poor, but he wants to act like those rich nigger-lovers and drink, but he can only afford those stale whiskey. He used up all the money he is supposed to spend on us. Oh, but might as well. Using all the whites money. It will do them no good to have so much money.

Bob yelling like he got cunt too. In sleep some more. Yelling,"Atticus, you watched out. I will take my revenge !" Then making those spitting sound he attempt to make in his sleep. In truth, I doubt he can do anything. He is a coward who tail is stuck between his legs. In fact, his tail is so long, it gags his mouth and all he can do is talk some cock which he wont do.

Well, that Atticus is nothing but a nigger in my eyes as well. Humiliating sista like that. He thinks he is a proper white just by speaking all that deep English. Well, by defending those disgusting blacks, that makes him the same grade as them. What a yonder, degrading himself. All the talks about humanity.

Dirts, all of them. Treating the Ewells like dirts while they ARE the dirts. Disgusting all of them. The look Atticus gave to sista was ... Dont think I dont know what the look is. He looks down on us, even though he is a white himself. He is a nigger love, just like that Dolphin Raymond or something.

Where is America going to ? A nigger lover country ? Might as well move to Africa, dont cha think. Soon Maycomb will have full of mixed kids running around cause all those white men all wanna have a taste of black women.

Last night, Mayella started screaming in her sleep,"Stop ! No ! I dont want ! I did not ask that nigger to screw me !" Then she ended off groaning. Probably some spasms again.

Like I said before, trash father produce trash kids. Ya know how I feel about myself ? I feel wretch. I dont think Bob ever love Ma before, probably just raped her and get free sex. I'm produced from a wretch sperm with a poor egg. So I therefore become a financially poor wretch boy.

Maybe I will end up like Bob in the future. Yeah. How happy can I get.

You know da meaning of wasting one's time and resources by sending that nigger to court ? Its a complete time wasted on that nigger.

"The chillun always stare at me while I help Mayella" Well, has he ever looked at me in the eyes to really know how I'm feeling when I see him in the house ? NO ! He never see me with the hatred there, that feeling where I wanted to just bleach his skin. A black - a dirty, disgusting black in a white house.

Fancy him acting like a muscular man, choppin' up the things old Sista asked him to do. Thats why all Blacks are cheap labour, loser ! They do things without money ! They know that they are low down creatures who deserves to be at the beck and calls of the whites !

Lowdown scums. All you deserves are spits.

We, the Ewells, belong to an exclusive club which consists of the Ewell. We do what hell want to, damn. No one in the name of God or whatsoever can stop us.

Ya think I really want to behave this way ? I have had a shit father, which in turn will give birth to a shit son. Get the theory ? Shit things produce shit results.

Life's a damn roller coastal ride which will be a never ending hell for me.

School. Woke up late, whats the big deal. Strolled to school. I was hoping the sky might fall on me any time. Fer what, seriously, goin' to school. Jus goin' to school to please that stupid truant lady. Aye, I think the truant lady is used to me cussing and swearing at her fer three years already, as she doesnt look shocked when I used the F word on her.

New teacher, call Carol Fish or something. Talking about cats which walked on two legs. Come on, were country kids who lives in a country filled with animals. Cats on two ? I was wondering if it was her first time seeing an animal then.

She was acting like some stupid idiot again, during lunch, giving a Cunningham money. Dont she know that the Cunningham doesnt take things from others ? Loser !

After class when lesson resumed, she suddenly screamed over a mouse. Seriously, it furthers prove that she has not seen an animal before. Then, she suddenly asked me to go home and wash my hair.

Ser what if I'm the flithiest human hur, I'm an Ewell, slut. Ewells do whatever we want, no one bother.

So I just shouted at her, calling her a snot-nose slut and I left only when I heard her cry. Stupid people, trifling with me !

Start of the new year again, dunno what its for, its just like every other stupid days. The stupid truant lady gonna come by again, knocked the house down and forced me to to school just to get my name onto the stupid roll book, like what she does every year.

So sick of it, dont wanna go school. Dont see a need. Just wanna grow old, die and during the process, just ... live. Just live off the government, get pay checks, like what old Bob does and thats it. Just live life like what a typical Ewell does.

Bein' a parasite is nice, you live off the stinky government. Get free food and free money. No one cares what you are doin' anyway.

Big Sis getting beat up by Bob again. Thats Bob for you, drinkin' like no tomorrow and comin' back home beating up Big Sis.

Gonna stay out of the way, as always.